"All assassins are fucked up in some way. Nothing surprises me anymore."

2 posts in one night.
My, I AM spoiling you.

After the Res post, I couldn't help but show you this.
My all time favourite game.
This is the only reason I own a Wii.

"I'm weary of this gilded world, all glitter, no soul."
P.s. Ignore the Call of Duty advert. It sucks.

"To the window, to the walls, 'til the sweat drops off my..." "Don't you DARE!"

Hi :D
I promise that I'm not gunna moan today/yesterday/ this morning.
I looked back and realised that I whine, alot.
Dear God I want to be sick.
Why?
Why would that be arousing?
Eurgh *shudders*.

I hate eggs.

Pour vous.

I think I need to take some time away from WoW. It's in my dreams again, which is never a good sign. The last thing to make it into my dreams was Resident Evil. This may not sound so bad. Nightmares from watching it before bed you might be thinking.
Wrong.
This was from playing the game.
16 hours straight.
A day.
For roughly 2 month.
It got really bad when I realised that my upstairs landing had the same layout as the landing of the East Saving room. A place where as you first open the door, a zombie appears at the side of you, ready to maul you and eat your brains as a warm and tasty bed time snack if you haven't mastered the controls (which is god damn hard to do). If like me, you had mastered the controls, you could fluently turn to the side, raise your gun and launch a bullet into his head. If not. Well, let's just say, unless you made a zombie roast, the East Save wasn't so East safe.

This is what came back :')

















Me and a friend started naming the zombies so they weren't as horrifying when they opened doors (apparently they can do this) or jumped through windows.
There was Vomiting Jimmy (he threw up acid on you as you tried to run past him on the stairs).
Peaches guarded the East Save room the first time you got there.
Marcus was the one we kept alive the longest. It was easier to have him alive and walking along the upstairs balcony, then dead (but not for long) and coming back as a Crimson Head (see above).
Then there was...













But.
The less said about him, the better :')

None of them will ever love you the way I do.

Look how dedicated I am to you.
I logged out of Enenria just to come and update. This is partly because A made me feel guilty about not updating when I saw her.
I'm in the middle of a crisis that may lead to moving house YET AGAIN! I don't know if my tiny mind can cope with packing my life up in boxes and carting them to a different place for the third time this year. IT'S ONLY MARCH! I'm still on the fence with this one though. I'm scared that if I do move, the problems it will cause else where wont be worth the end result. But I suppose I'll get to that when the time comes.

I'm getting extremely fed up of the weather. The miserable sky is not helping my mood, nor is it helping me make up my mind. I'll sit staring out of the window, wondering what birds must do when it rains rather than trying to sort my own life out.
I know you're all going 'Stop playing WoW then you stupid bitch.' but I don't want to. It gives me something to take my mind off it, and for a little while, I don't have to worry that my new decision may just break my family apart at the seams.
And so I continue to play.

...

You know you love someone when you can sit next them, just after they've farted and know that it doesn't get much better than this.

Booooooo!

I sit here looking at this blog nearly every day, trying to pull ideas out of my game rotted brain that would entertain anyone who happened to stumble upon this pile of rubbish. And nearly everyday I just close the web page and load up something else. I have nothing really to talk about if you take out the bf and WoW, neither of which will entertain anyone who doesn't know/ play the said topics. Obviously you can't play the bf, that's what my role is...
It's come to my attention that I have failed in life once again.
The job interview that I didn't mention here due to me not wanting to jinx it, went badly.
The day started badly, I cried, I panicked, I cried some more, I missed a funeral, I didn't get the job, I sat in my room for several hours not knowing what to do with myself. It didn't sink in straight away what had happened to me.
I had woken up that morning feeling confident, I had been there before, the people who were going to interview me didn't scare me, I'd worked with them before. I had had my online friend wish me luck in 2 different languages the night before. I really thought I was going to do ok.
And then it happened.
Something went wrong.
I'm not going to say what happened, because unless you were there, it would just seem like a pointless and idiotic complication that could have been easily fixed. But I panicked. And I couldn't cope. No one was helping me. Everyone was making things harder for me. I burst into tears in the middle of the street.
I got there in the end but the day was already ruined. My confidence had gone. My stutter came back. I knew I wasn't going to do it.
And I didn't.
It was a huge kick in the teeth for me.
One of many recently I suppose.

On a nicer subject. J and I have been together 9 months now.

Here I come, crawling back, with my tail between my legs.

World of Warcraft is having 'technical issues' (in real life it's showing me how much it hates me by breaking when I'm only 3 bars away from 85) so I'm trying to pass the time by blogging.
I'm a horrible internet user.
Between blogging and loading up the login screen of WoW, i'm constantly refreshing the guild forum to see if they've granted me access to said forum.
I feel like a drug addict waiting for my next fix.

I've moved house.
Again.
I'm not even sure if any of you are aware I moved at all to be perfectly honest.
If I even have to unpack another box, I'm going to burst into tears and join the cat in the cupboard.
The boxes I had previously packed seemed to have been done so while I was either:
a) drugged out of my face
b) in the middle of a caffine high or,
c) in a complete I cba mood.

I'm going to go with b and c.
There was an empty shoe box.
Yes, an EMPTY box.
There was also half a pack of cards and a bag of bat confetti.
I dread to think what I'm going to find when I move out.

WoW is now lying to me and saying that I have internet connection...
I'll show it no internet connection.

You know what.
I really can't be bothered pouring my past 2 month out to you.
I'm going to go watch Broadwalk Empire and swear at the lack of WoW every now and then.

Zombies...

I had a dream last night. I say dream, it was about zombies attacking J so it was more like a nightmare (if it was just zombies then it'd have been a dream). I panicked when I woke up because J wasn't in bed. I calmed myself down when I heard the hairdryer. The first thing that went through my head was 'Oh that must be J because Zombies don't need to dry their hair.' I then got really bad giggles as I imagined a zombie drying it's hair.
I don't know if I've mentioned it before but I love zombies. Like absolutely love them. I have all the Resident Evil games (except 5, I've completed it about 7 times but traded it in so I could buy J a Christmas present. THAT'S how much I love his stupid face, I'm willing to give away one of the greatest games for him.) I have nearly every zombie movie that's ever been made, even the really old ones. I think I like them so much because it's a believeable concept. It could actually happen. Maybe not he brain eating zombies, that might be stretching it but maybe the Rage Zombies.
Anyway, I've discovered that if I'm mad at J, I'm more likely to dream about him with zombies. This is probably because he doesn't like them. You have to understand that I'm still trying to come to terms with this fact. My boy hates one of my favourite things in the whole world. It's like he's come up to me and been all like 'Hey Jessie, I hate your mum. In fact, I hate your mum even more than I hate the talks on what it'd be like if you were a man.' Those talks usually go a little bit like this 'Hey if I was a man I reckon I'd be bigger than you, I could totally dominate you. You'd be the bitch in the relationship because I'd have a bigger dick than you.' J doesn't appreciate them.
Anyway, I'm going to play WoW. I haven't got my char to level 80 before Cataclysm comes out and do you know what? I don't even care.