Booooooo!

I sit here looking at this blog nearly every day, trying to pull ideas out of my game rotted brain that would entertain anyone who happened to stumble upon this pile of rubbish. And nearly everyday I just close the web page and load up something else. I have nothing really to talk about if you take out the bf and WoW, neither of which will entertain anyone who doesn't know/ play the said topics. Obviously you can't play the bf, that's what my role is...
It's come to my attention that I have failed in life once again.
The job interview that I didn't mention here due to me not wanting to jinx it, went badly.
The day started badly, I cried, I panicked, I cried some more, I missed a funeral, I didn't get the job, I sat in my room for several hours not knowing what to do with myself. It didn't sink in straight away what had happened to me.
I had woken up that morning feeling confident, I had been there before, the people who were going to interview me didn't scare me, I'd worked with them before. I had had my online friend wish me luck in 2 different languages the night before. I really thought I was going to do ok.
And then it happened.
Something went wrong.
I'm not going to say what happened, because unless you were there, it would just seem like a pointless and idiotic complication that could have been easily fixed. But I panicked. And I couldn't cope. No one was helping me. Everyone was making things harder for me. I burst into tears in the middle of the street.
I got there in the end but the day was already ruined. My confidence had gone. My stutter came back. I knew I wasn't going to do it.
And I didn't.
It was a huge kick in the teeth for me.
One of many recently I suppose.

On a nicer subject. J and I have been together 9 months now.