I want the opportunity to take you for granted.

I got the job!
Well, I got the trail position which will fingers crossed lead to me getting the job full time.

But yeah.
I don't really have anything to say other than that.
I'm terrified about going tomorrow. They're putting me in a place where there's hot liquid. Me. A deliriously clumsy person who can't go a day without falling down the stairs or walking into a table.
Let's hope I make it out alive.


I've just heard Gerard Butler say 'boobies'. I don't think I've ever grinned so wide in all my life. He has a voice that makes that word sounds amazingly funny.

Golly Sandra, you've grown up really crazy.

I have a job interview tomorrow.
It's not for anything really amazing, just a local coffee shop that's just opened.
But if I get it and I get out of the house for more than an hour a day, it'll seem like a God send to me.
I'm so bored recently.
I have nothing to do.
I've cancelled WoW, my xbox is at Simons, music bores me, films bore me, I have no books that I haven't already read a million times.
I'm at a loose end!

So God please, let me get this job.

Inmates run the asylum but worst of all, I'm left tealess.

I'm feeling pretty fragile today. A good night out can do that to you I suppose. I honestly didn't expect it to be as good as it was, but then again, we ended up in a completely different place with completely different people.

There was an acoustic set on at Xscape so we abandoned the Counting House for something with a bit more substance. A couple of friends were already there but I was only bothered about 1 person there if I'm truly honest. It seems that everyone else has changed so much over the past few months. Or maybe I have and just haven't noticed it. I found myself not knowing what to say to a girl I've been friends with for 7 years, opting instead to take the easy road and pull faces and screw my nose up whenever I caught her eye. Although, she did have a face like thunder the whole time she was there, so maybe neither of us have changed and I just couldn't deal with her sour mood.

I shunned my usual drink of Southern Comfort and lemonade and opted to reach out, ordering every flavour of fruit vodka they had behind the bar until I found the one I liked the most. Which happened to be Mandarin. We were all sat round a tiny table on even tinier stools, swapping drinks and grimacing as we got one that we didn't like. Hats and headbands were handed round and tried on and pictures were snapped that will surface on the net sometime this week for the sole reason of letting me untag myself in every single one.

The set had already started when I turned up but it wasn't anything I hadn't seen before. The 2 of them have been playing for a while and it used to be a weekly outing to go and listen to them. There was only 1 song that they sang that I hadn't heard before but it was this song that I sat and listened to the whole way through, without joining in any conversation, even though some was aimed at me and without taking my eyes off the singer.

It was beautiful.

It was a good night. Different from most, quieter than most but still a lot of fun.

Now as then is simple truth. Sweetest tongue has sharpest tooth.

We daydream alone, forgetting the one place we call home.

I've gotten obsessed with fanfics recently.
I'm not proud of it, but I'll be damned to deny that some of them are effing brilliant!
If only they didn't have so much sex in them. It's like an episode of Rome!
I'm leaning more toward ME ones at the moment, what with me finally having finished it!
Some people can make game characters so bloody cute!

I have to admit, I'm at a loss with what to do with myself now that I don't get to shoot aliens in the face anymore. I'm tempted to start a new game, if only to get the 6 achievements I'm lacking to have it 100% completed but I fear that if I load that game up on the Xbox once more my boyfriend will actually banish me from his house.
I did play it quite a lot!

I tried a numerous amount of games yesterday/the day before (I'm not entirely sure what day it was/what day it is right now) in an attempt to redirect my attention away from the fact that I have another 10 months to wait for the next installment to the Shepard trilogy!

I attempted to kid myself into thinking I was man enough to handle Dead Space 2. 10 minutes is a record for me. I loathe games that make me jump! I'm rubbish at shooting, I'll admit that (not so bad at 3rd person for some reason though) but couple it up with constantly being on edge at the fact that something was going to pop round the rest corner and skewer me and I amounted to a shivering mess of failure.
So that got turned off and put back into the cupboard.

Next came Silent Hill: Homecoming. I realise that it isn't much better, but there's the whole 'lack of having to aim at anything' going for it so I figured it'd be less nerve-wracking.

Wrong.

If anything it was worse. It was darker than DS, weirder and involved a large amount of Bubblehead Nurses. I didn't have to aim, but the radio started to crackle and I was near tears with fear.
Back in the cupboard for that too.

At this point, Viva Pinata was looking like the safest option! But no! In swooped Splatter House (it didn't actually swoop, I noticed that it was on the window ledge under some books that I'd been reading the day before) and I was saved from dire boredom! It's a pretty good mind numbing game. You get to kill things with their own severed arms (you actually get to use your own severed arm at one point) but without it turning the game into the awful 'Horror' genre that I can't stand!

Only 11 days until Shadows of the Damned comes out and I can throw myself into another game and generally deprive myself of sleep again.
Bring it on!


Also, I've just noticed there's a moth flying round my room. I'm going to have to go cry now as I try and reduce it to a smear on the wall with the heaviest book I can lay my hands on!
Dirty insecty bastard!

Why so Sirius?

Touche Mr Black.
I laughed so much at this.
Also, would it count as Beastiality if you slept with Sirius Black?
What with the whole Animagus thing...

You're not getting any sleep tonight,

I've finally finished playing Mass Effect 2!
32 hours of pure unadulterated alien goodness. It has to be one of the best games i've ever played, other than Assassins Creed 3 (Brotherhood). The whole romance part of the game added a new twist and broke up the whole, go on a mission, shoot some aliens in the face, rinse and repeat crap. That's probably why I like Bioware games so much.
I totally seduced Thane (this time around, Garrus was my first choice. Then I realised that he looked ALOT like a dinosaur and broke it off). The final 'sex' scenes are awkward and badly done but it's bloody brilliant!

I took 2 attempts on the final mission. The first time round I had no upgrades and so everyone DIED! I had to watch Legion get blown up! I also had to cope with watching Thane get a steel gurder through his chest at 2 in the morning. It was awful!
I went back and mined minerals for like 4 hours just so I could ensure people survived.
We did.
I got the achievement and squealed!
I felt like God.

And now?
I'm gameless unless I play Dragon Age 2 again for the third time...
Shadows of the Damned needs to hurry up and come out!!

That or I should be able to travel forward in time to the release date of ME3!!
Or Assassins Creed 4.

Either one would do, I'm not fussy :D

How can crazy horses drag a secret from anyone?

I went to Tropical World on Sunday.
I haven't been in years!

It was shit.
I'm sorry to say it but it was. We got lost on the way there (that was actually the funniest part of the entire day) and had to pay 3 quid to walk around in a place that was too hot to breathe in. I had to pay 3 quid to look at some plants and have a woman continually run into the back of my legs with a pram while the kid grabbed my tights and legs in a way to get me to move so he could see the crappy plants. I'm aware that I sound childish and petty but I was stoked for this trip. If I couldn't go to the Deep, I figured I'd go to the next best place.
But no.
All the way round I was comparing it to the Deep.
The fact that there were no sharks was the ultimate kick in the teeth. I knew there wouldn't be any, but hey, if you can have crocodiles, what are a few small sharks?
The meerkats were cute though. But once again the pram woman ruined it when her kid headbutted me in the back of the knee trying to get round me.
Little bastard.

The Coal Mining Museum didn't fare much better.
We got there too late to go on the tour and so walked around. And all the horses had been put away so all we could do was read about mining. And we got locked in a little room with a load of weird dolls and it was dark and Will looked like he was gunna cry when we couldn't get the automatic door to work.

I'm not going to anymore museums unless they contain sharks. And are called the Deep. And I'm surrounded by the only people I know who can endure my socially unacceptable talk about sex and whatever rubbish comes into my head. And there are only 4 people who spring to mind. 1 who I'm seeing, 1 I'm related to and the other 2 are the greatest people on the whole planet!


I would also like to say that I'm offically disgusted at the internet as of Saturday when I came across a sexual fanfiction containing Predator.
Yes.
The whole weird mandible faced alien from the film of the same name.
It was horrible.
And that is the biggest understatement in the history of the world.
But you guessed it. To know it was horrible, I must have read it to the end...
Guilty as charged :D